There’s nothing linear…

….when it comes to personal growth. For instance, you might think that, once you move halfway across the country, you’ll become more independent…….but really, your heart might break open and you’ll become more tender….

Or, when something ends that you loved, you expect to grow in a new, self-sufficient direction……..but instead, you learn about forgiveness.

Or, when faced with physical pain, you expect to “get tough”…..but really, nothing happens until you embrace the pain and decide to be happy even with it, anyway……and then you discover a secret of life…….that surrender means really giving it up, and moving away from what you’re clinging to.

And I’m reminded of that hot July day, our feet in the cool creek in the community garden on that busy St. Louis street corner, sobbing for the zillionth time, when I gave up my home on the river bluff. Finally stopped fighting, and agreed to sell it, move into the monument company and prepare to leave our City of 25 years. And of course, it was one of the hardest decisions in my life, to walk away from that house on that day.  But my surrender let the clog burst free, and my life finally began moving in a forward direction again. Who would have guessed it? Not me.

But this is how things are. There’s nothing linear about any kind of growth….look at nature herself…….

~ by kbosin on February 24, 2011.

2 Responses to “There’s nothing linear…”

  1. I love this and it is timely for me! thank you.

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